Suffering

For the past couple months i have been suffering from depression. I am only speaking out about it now. Last night i swallowed a handful of pills that were suppossed to kill me, but i am still alive. I am confused, and feel alone. Everything is complicated and i don't know who to turn to. I'm frightened. I want help, but not sure how to get it. If anyone reads this, please give me some insight, or advice. I could really use some help. Thanks.