Poem for C.J.

No matter how hard i try
the tears won't come
not for you
i'm tired of falling
when your not there to catch me
i still love you
i opened our chests
and put our hearts together
but yours went into shock
and stopped
i left my glass eyes
in your room
the new girl
fingers them
wanting them.
she should put them
in place
to see how much
you hate love.
to see how much
you hated me.

New Perspective

feeling drained
and out of perspective
going this road alone
waiting for that
one chance that will
break me
from the flow
looking out of a
stained glass window
seeing the world
in different colors
makes life
a little more
interesting.

a shattered heart

I'm winning,
then all of a sudden
i've lost the game.

Why did u treat me
like a pawn and move me
in the wrong direction.

Hearing your victory
trying to make me understand
that it wasn't a game.

Thousands of other girls disagree
with your point of view
why can't i?

I'm done playing
if i can't play my way
goodbye.

A thousand Knives

I'm tired of pretending that your not hurting me.
I'm tired of alot of things.
I just wish life would take it easy on me.
I'm sick of the bruises,
and cuts,
and scars from you
pushing me in the fire.