Found? I finally found you.

I have finally found it. Love. Isn't it a magical word? I can't believe it. It feels soo good! :) <3 we went to Lagoon sat, and he pulled me under the waterfall with him on the rapids. Meanie. :) You know who you are. ;) I didn't think i'd ever be this happy. Whenever i think of it, i just smile. He makes me feel so wonderful! :) i'm posting a vid, later so. :) Peace!

Impossible

Why is it so hard to love you?
Why is it so hard to say i love you?
i'm with someone else,
but when i am,
i'm thinking of you
when his lips meet mine
or his arms wrap around me,
i can't help wishing it was you
kissing and holding me
sometimes i wonder
if it would be better for us both
if i never made the first move
emailing you, wanting to meet
it started with a promise,
but things change
feelings change
we're in too deep
but i can't love you
why is it so hard to love you?
sometimes i wish i could
say those three words
out loud
all i can say is
"Olive You"

Ke$ha - Kiss N Tell

oh.. fuck..

so. my family found out that i was smoking and drinking over at my friends house.. and their still giving me shit about it.. yeah so i do that stuff. who gives a shit? it's my life. leave me the fuck alone. gawd.. you can't do anything about it so lay off. that's all i had to say.. :)

just shit... my choice in guys is shit..

why am i soo stupid? every guy that i have dated so far has either been a cheater or a player.. believe me there is a difference.. can't trust anyone anymore.. i was originally going to make this a long post about my feelings towards guys, but i really don't want to talk right now..

Hollywood Undead - Pain With Lyrics

This is basically what i've been feeling lately. in a nutshell.. i hate this..