Sunday, November 28, 2010

Wintergirls

Wintergirls

Your not dead, but your not alive. Your a wintergirl. Famous quote from an amazing insightful book. I've read this novel about 3 times, and each time i read, i get a deeper meaning from it. I understand the point of view, because i'm still stuck where Lia is in the beginning. I don't eat anything, and when i do, i don't eat much. I excercise daily, and, not proud to say, i'm puker, like Cassie was. Before i give this book away, for recommendation, you need to have a deep understanding on the subject of anorexia. It's a very emotional roller coaster, and you realize, when you start reading, you cannot stop. Under any circumstances, until the end. The second thing i like about this book, is that there is discussion questions at the end, so you can think about what it meant to you. You'll take a journey with Lia, and Cassie as the delve into their pretend world where they dance with witches and kiss monsters. They are wintergirls, frozen in a matchstick body. Make sure you have a tissue box, so you'll be prepared as you read the heart wrenching story of Lia and her battle with anorexia.

“Dead girl walking,” the boys say in the halls.
“Tell us your secret,” the girls whisper, one toilet to another.
I am that girl.
I am the space between my thighs, daylight shining through.
I am the bones they want, wired on a porcelain frame.
Lia and Cassie were best friends, wintergirls frozen in matchstick bodies. But now Cassie is dead. Lia's mother is busy saving other people's lives. Her father is away on business. Her step-mother is clueless. And the voice inside Lia's head keeps telling her to remain in control, stay strong, lose more, weigh less. If she keeps on going this way—thin, thinner, thinnest—maybe she'll disappear altogether.

In her most emotionally wrenching, lyrically written book since the National Book Award finalist Speak, best-selling author Laurie Halse Anderson explores one girl's chilling descent into the all-consuming vortex of anorexia.

Friday, November 26, 2010

crazy

So, black friday was a total bust this year.. except for all the freaks. My dad said he was stationed (i know, my mom got carried away!) at the waffle makers, and when they finally started opening them, this one lady grabbed like five or six. COME ON PEOPLE! ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS! Why in the hell, would you need six freaking waffle makers! The electronic section, was a total f**ing mess. I was kinda scared to go in there! Some guy was standing by the dvd section and throwing dvd's to people who wanted them. IT WAS A MADHOUSE!!!!!!!! Other than all the psychotic people, it was fine. We went home, and I stayed up watching Julian Smith on Youtube. Overall, it was a pretty good night. (Next year, i'm not buying anything. I'm just gonna sit there and watch the chaos). I recorded the whole thing so if you want to watch it, go to youtube and look up, The Joys of Black Friday. I swear it's soo funny!!!! So next year, i'm not buying, i'm watching. and for all you people out there who take like, five or six things, why? What is the point? Just get one, and leave the rest for others you need one! Really! Just do it! Next year, on black friday, i have some advice. BE CIVILIZED HUMAN BEINGS!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

maybe it hurts

I wish we could all go through life without feeling rejected.. relationship wise, or anything else!

Monday, November 8, 2010

Alone

I wish the world would just leave me alone.. Stop shoving your thoughts and problems down my throat..
I cry alone in my room every night because of you. I'm not sure i can handle this anymore.. Please, leave me be.. Please. I am always the one who screws up everything.... Life, i'm sorry, but i don't think you can handle me..

Now, don't think this is a suicide note. Cause it's not. I'm venting.. totally stressed. Seriously, i'll be fine tommorow.. i think.