game of life

There is something wrong when a figure of authority (lunchlady=mom) stamps a child's hand for their parent's lack of money. WE ARE ALL DISPOSABLE PAWNS IN THE GAME OF LIFE. We are not strong enough to fight for the things we care about the most. It sickens me, and i'm tired of watching the government tear innocent people down. Bring them to their knees. we are supposed to be a country of free people. No one controls our fates but us.

Is Obama trying to destroy the country he's sworn to protect? This question has been burning in my mind for weeks now. I've listened to Glen Beck and other talk shows and all i hear is that we the people are failing to protect the country we are trying so hard to fight for. Why are the soliders over in other countries? They are trying to fight for freedom. Fight to free us from dictators. From others who would do us harm. Trying to fight for this country. She needs us now, more than ever, and we're turning our backs.

I realize this is nothing like anything i've posted on my blog so far, but i'm truly frightened by the future. It's hard staying strong, when your future is crumpling in front of your eyes, and theres nothing you can do to help. I understand that the whole "end of the world" is total bull. The end of america is a different story.

I'll write more later. I'm tired. I have to mop. That sleep guy whats-his-face better sprinkle some "sleep dust" on me tonight or he's in for a world of pain. :)

Goodnight Fellow Bloggers!

-Kelly (Lia)
(I just feel like a Lia today. Look up "Wintergirls" by Laurie Anderson to understand the backstory. Literally.)

The Only Exception

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I've sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.

You are the only exception. [x4]

You are the only exception. [x4]

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.

Suffering

For the past couple months i have been suffering from depression. I am only speaking out about it now. Last night i swallowed a handful of pills that were suppossed to kill me, but i am still alive. I am confused, and feel alone. Everything is complicated and i don't know who to turn to. I'm frightened. I want help, but not sure how to get it. If anyone reads this, please give me some insight, or advice. I could really use some help. Thanks.