Contest

I'm going to enter a writing contest. For those of you interested, go to this link!

www.lauriestolarz.com

Hope you guys enter! the prizes are sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Breathing You (song)

It started with dream and then you turned around
there i was with my tears hitting the ground
you tried to hold me but i pushed you away
yet something inside you made you stay

how did we get here?

something is happening, something's not right
there's a burning desire, and my heart has taken flight.
please be faithful, please be true
i don't need this, i don't need anything but you

i watched your tailights fading
before i turned and ran away
these emotions spinning inside me
makes me want to say

my mind is beating against this
against you
this wouldn't be so hard
if i just gave in
in to breathing you

something is happening, something's not right
there's a burning desire, and my heart has taken flight.
please be faithful, please be true
i don't need this, i don't need anything but you

( i hope you guys like this! i'll work on it some more and post a video of myself singing later! Promise! I love you all!)

If you are interested

I have something posted on a website called Teen Ink. It's called "Restless" and i hope you rate it! Thanks!

http://www.teenink.com/poetry/free_verse/article/270365/Restless/

Demi Lovato - Here We Go Again - Music Video (HQ)

Favorite Song EVAR!

Me, myself and time
By:Demi lovato

p.s. my family says, when i sing, i sound a lot like her.. best compliment ever.. :)

I can make the rain stop, if I wanna
Just by my attitude
I can take my laptop, record a snapshot
And change your point of view

I just entered this brand new world
And I'm so open hearted
I know I've got a long way to go
but I'm, I'm just getting started

I'm over my head and
I know it, I know it
I'm doing my best
Not to show it, to show it

Whatever it takes to be
What I was meant to be
I'm gonna try
'Cause I'm Living the dream
And I know it, I know it

I'm trying my best
Not to blow it, to blow it
And I know everything will be fine
With me, myself, and time

And time... (7x)

I go where life takes me
but some days it makes me
Want to change my direction
Sometimes it gets lonely but I know
that it's only a matter of my perception

I just entered this brand new world
And I'm so open hearted
I know I've got a long way to go
but I'm, I'm just getting started

I'm over my head and
I know it, I know it
I'm doin' my best
Not to show it, to show it

Whatever it takes to be
What I was meant to be
I'm gonna try

'Cause I'm Living the dream
And I know it, I know it

I'm trying my best
Not to blow it, to blow it
And I know everything will be fine
With me, myself, and time

And maybe there's nothing like this moment
To just be real and let the truth be spoken
Whatever's broke I can make it unbroken
Turn the led in my hand into something golden

Just try, more love
If I just try, more love
Then I'll find myself in time

I'm over my head and
I know it, I know it
I'm doin' my best
Not to show it, to show it

Whatever it takes to be
What I was meant to be
I'm gonna try

I'm over my head and
I know it, I know it
I'm doin' my best
Not to show it, to show it

Whatever it takes to be
What I was meant to be
I'm gonna try
'Cause I'm Living the dream
And I know it, I know it

I'm trying my best
Not to blow it, to blow it
And I know everything will be fine
With me, myself, and time

(I'll find myself in time
I know I'll find myself in time)

I love it.. Demi is my hero!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally!

I have the right to now say i am in a relationship! ..... how many of you believe me? .... I am an awesome liar. but! i don't lie all the time. i just felt like putting that down to see how many of you reacted to it. a few of you might have been in shock, you know who you are.... ;) but now i must say, i am single. and very very happy! about it.. some days. but, look, i'm just blabbering on..! :) that's not the reason i came on here.... 

I do not, (repeat) do Not!!!!!!!!!! ever... want to see a fred or jason movie. if you know what i'm talking about, congrats! if you don't, well... i don't want to insult anyone here! ;) Halloween wasen't that bad, it was just really lame. but, the friday the 13th.. i hated it. it was good! too good, it scared me to death! before you call me a baby, i know it's not real, and it's just a movie, i am aware. BUT! just the idea of him showing up in your dreams is just freaky... think about it. seriously.

I never thought i'd say this, but i lost the joy in writing. .... let that sink in for a moment... for those of you who know me, you know i love love love to write. and i've won a few contests too. but, nowadays, i can't find my motivation. what's the point. at first, i thought it was writers block or something, so i set it down, and gave myself a month, but when i came back to it, i felt the same. i got scared... i really don't know what to do. i told myself last year, i need at least one book published before i die, so i need to finish this one. but, i really don't want to... i'm still trying to figure out what happened.. if you have any ideas.. please comment..

one destroyer

One of the things, that i hate. is getting sick. I currently have a sore throat, and i went to the library today, and i couldn't even say hi to my friend, cause i couldn't talk! sorry brandon! :)

other than that, my mom is being very protective of her room tonight because she's still wrapping presents. i don't get it. i'm 18. i asked for nothing this christmas. she still got me something. or i would be allowed in her room. agghhhh! :) got to love her...

people are sooo freaking rude.. ex. my aunt went to the store last week, with one of her babies, they have big heads, not sure of the reason but. i love them to death. their soo cute... :) but this one person, who apparently thought she was above everyone else, or she wouldn't do this, walked up to my aunt, looked at her baby, and said "What an interesting looking child" in a superior tone, and walked away... if i was there with my aunt, i swear, i would've beat the sh** out of that women! those kinds of people really piss me off.

lighter note. I walked into walmart, and those people who stand outside with their little bells, i feel bad, cause it was freezing tonight, i dumped my whole wallet into the little slot. well, not literally, but all the usless change i had went into the little red bucket. I felt soo good inside! i'm doing that more often! in fact, i'm going to scour my house for loose change, and dump it in the bucket. I'm a good person!!!!!!!


advice, do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! be a good person! there's only one person i know in my life ( hint: library) who has ever done anything good! and told me about it anyway.. He totally rocks!!!!!!!!!!!


Please be a good person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm broken

You.
you know who you are.
and i forgive you.

just please don't leave me..
i hate being alone.
unlike you...

but i show you the greatest respect i can give.

and i still love you.

don't delete me from your life.

Something from creative writing!

Before I Die
A poem inspired by book titles

Distant Waves
Man's search for meaning
the realm of possibililty
how beautiful the ordinary

how they met
the monster in me
an abusive relationship
how beautiful the ordinary

poison
all that remains
wintergirls
how beautiful the ordinary

because i am furniture
boy meets boy
impossible
how beautiful the ordinary

before i fall
a time for dancing
chasing tail lights
how beautiful the ordinary

speak
what they always tell us
cut
how beautiful the ordinary

radiant darkness
love is the higher law
you can't get there from here
how beautiful the ordinary

Work for this

Please
don't make this complicated
i hate drama

so...
you like being alone
well, who doesn't?
don't shut yourself out

i read your messages
and shift through your blogs
trying to figure out if your true
or if i'm just wasting my time

every time i see you
i have butterflies
when you look at me
my heart melts

i'm so far gone in your words
i wish you felt this way
your smile is...
i should stop.

i'm trying so hard,
        to work for this...

                     but i need your help.
               ... or is this all a game to you?...

My single battle

Must.Not.Eat.

If i eat
i feel fat
and my small pink mouse stomach
will be polluted, and i will
feel sick
empty=strong
every calorie
..i don't eat..
...i won't eat...
makes me that much
stronger.
104.00
then... 90.00
then...
85.00
i will shrink
and maybe
...hopefully..
dissapear altogether
or maybe i'll slip,
into dark...
just a whisper...
a.l.o.n.e.