Frozen

Left alone
gasping for air
on the cold damp pavement
wishing for the impossible.

Submissive to fear
of the unknown
lingering in the dark corners
of my mind.

Forgetting the light
of the once true happiness
shattered into crystallized
tears that wont stop falling.

A heart that forgot how to beat
a life forgetting to live
lifeless eyes that have seen
the end of everything.

Living Blind

I've lost everything
all that's left is my eyes
but I don't like what I see
so please let me die.

a zombie with flesh is what I've become
a prison for my youth and the young

a dreamless life
lost in misdirection
taken everything from me
except my own afflictions.

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All my memories,
secrets pinpointed
inside gas station intervals
and crowded shopping malls
we hide ourselves in dusk
never wanting to reveal the day.
Everything Proclaims a Beginning.

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Light in the air
and stars in the sky
her breath is still
as I silently hold her.

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Rant:
No matter how much a person says they care about you or if you care about them, they always seem to leave in the end. ALWAYS. I've lost so many good things this year. my family for my moms selfish reason of whatever it was this time. it all just seems childish. I mean, we all have so many other IMPORTANT life changing, or threatening (depends on how you view it) things we need to focus on. Not petty things like religion, or the status of being gay or bi, or fucking straight. Why in the fuck do we care about that shit???!! It's love for God sakes.. Just let people love each other! Is that too fucking hard for the mindset of America today? We elected the worst president ever. Of course it would be...